Dangerous Game

First of all, I have been bad about writing, which usually means I write like 4 posts in a day. So expect more.

Second, I had a rough week. I mean ROUGH. You see, I've been playing a dangerous game with eating (and no, I don't mean swallowing watermelon seeds).

On weekends I started this sorta bad habit of eating too much on Friday nights. But Fridays are weigh in day, so I recovered pretty well. Then I started eating more on Saturdays also, which required a lot more discipline to recover. At first it was just extra food that was good for me- like extra cheese sticks or an extra Greek yogurt. Sounds harmless, right?

WRONG!!

Because then I started eating Naughty Foods (sugar, etc) during those times, and recovering became even harder. But last week I did it- I still lost like 2.2 pounds.

And then it happened, I really messed up my eating and I couldn't stop. Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday. WHAT!? It was Wednesday before I could get my eating under control. Dang. And do you want to know who I blame? Cliff, who makes Cliff Bars, because that was what I could not stop eating. But nah, I blame myself (and Cliff a little bit. And Piggy).

I always knew this was a risky game, but it was only this week that I discovered how you slowly begin to think you can cheat and then it catches up with you.

Admittedly I did not think of it as cheating at first, it was just a little extra here and there but it grew. And this is pretty much exactly how I lost control of my eating when I gained all this weight. The reality is, taking and keeping weight off is work and requires diligence. No time for lazy, no space for wiggling in extra food. It all counts.

So here I am, night before a weigh in I am dreading more than ANY other weigh in since I started 20/20. But I have learned something, and it feels kinda good to know I have identified what has been happening and taken control of it.

And yep, I'll pay the piper tomorrow, but not next week, or the week after, because I am learning. And that's what its all about...